This man’s cry to God

This man’s cry to God

I found myself on my knees looking on the ground; face down lips almost in the dirt and not one care on how I would look when I raise my head. and I did want to lift my eyes to look in the face of who was in front of me, I dare not; I was before God the Master of my life. Has God left me in this place? Or have I moved away from where He told me to stay? Then I awoke to find that it was just a waking thought, one that I have had before but I never told anyone of these type of things before till now. This was so typical of something that would happen to me, I remember when I was a young boy I would just walk and walk while crying and thinking that I was not loved and I was so lonely; Not even having a friend with me and all I could do was cry and cry, and I would cry so much that while I walked I would not even pay attention to where I was going and then found I had no idea where I was or how I got here. Then my mind would think that this was so cool and I somehow went through time and space and got to a place where there were no more tears. Wow this is it heaven (or at least so I thought and that was good) Now that I am a man I found that to reach that kind of place or euphoria you had to do more walking and more crying to get to that place or state, and then you kind of knew where you were, so that did not work after a while.

I have wanted to get to that place lately, I have just wanted arms as strong as a man’s around me but as gentle and soft as a woman and just as caring. Where would I find that and how could that be possible well I have a secret that I will tell you but before I give you that I will show you that you can cry out and hear answers from God and be sure that it is His voice that speaks. Now this is going to take you into a place that you may not want to go but if you don’t then don’t go! if you cannot I am so sorry that you will not get what I have gotten, but I leave that up to you it is your choice. God does exist and He can be found and it is not my imagination that I am speaking about; He is in my consciousness and very real and very much alive, and should not be taken for granted. When we do we find out that there is a point when we hit reality. Then find the very truth of God's existence and find yourself on one side or another, this could be the time before you die or in a life or death situation, that place is where most men have that epiphany “oh God or something greater than I help” How am I so sure, well it came at a time when my body came under so much stress and it leaves consciousness and I was held there by the mere thread of life, my mind or any man’s mind is hanging there in space and time and your spirit is just in waiting and you have given a chance or a choice to make or to look and make notes of what you see, well I was there! Right there and my choice was to live but not the same as I did before.

I believe that God, my God, the God of Moses and of Abraham and of Isaac and of Jacob had me see something that pooled all of my senses to be aware of His true existence and tangibility, this was a gift from the Almighty God. The meaning may be different for others but to me, it meant that I did not love enough, there was no sacrifice made, so was I really loving people? I had nothing to loose and it was safe for me in my life. Because I did good things; I was a nice guy and I helped people I thought I should true love! (so what was wrong Guy?) just being a little hard on yourself? And feeling a little sadistic? No!
You see I believe that true love has some kind of sacrifice and should mean much more and kindness needs to go a little further, there should be more fruit and growth with love, and a lot of people would agree with me. So what is it all about? It is about true love! Love that has depth and does not lack substance, it is about how to show it and give it and express it and ask for forgiveness because you lack it unknowingly that is the more that I am talking about. I have two poems that I will share with you, that I wrote to give a bit of a prospective of love and how compassion is the giving side of loving but is sometimes the most misunderstood part of love or the part that gets you in to trouble for not doing it right or to one’s liking and some thoughts that you did not show it the way someone the Christian should. Never fear people are people and you will not always please the world but just try your best and read God’s word in the bible and always have a open heart to do as Christ did. The truth is you will get different views but line them up and see what God says. Hey it is a start to living a life filled with the desire to love others the way God instructs not the way man may confuse it to be.

I wish we could just love as Christ loved but I am afraid that even he was slain for doing that and He is deity. You know that is our only fight that if we at least try to do just that and achieve that kind of love it makes us somewhat civilized.


Compassion



Compassion! Whenever I employ it,
My heart leaps for joy.
I am human, with faults!
That I know.

Humbly I express, I care!
Humbly I express, that I am blessed.

Please take my hand, let me truly help!
How else can I show compassion?

I know my faults, and I won’t call out yours.
Please take my hand!
No agenda attached.

And I hope you can forgive me,
For all the things I lack.



By GtW o2-o9-o6 cc




The Seed

There is a Seed that few may know,
That when planted will always grow.
Into the largest tree your eyes would ever see,
Of which, I will tell and you will agree.

As I reflect in my heart and soul,
Of all the things, this seed beholds.
Now! when I tell you, I hope to be right,
The values in it please hold on tight.

This gift from God, is true love revealed,
The Seed that walked and whose hands did heal.
Who’s heart’s light so did shine,
To suffer the tree and save mankind.

The question is asked while this Seed did bleed,
Will you release your burdens and just receive?
I do confess! He will do the rest,
His shed blood will cover you with His righteousness!

No Seed can grow like this one can,
And save the souls of mortal man.
So plant this seed into your heart, with all intent,
This is God’s true plan! Prepare to be sent.

Once delivered please stand back, watch pray!
Be patient, then you will see what you’ve got.
It will grow I swear of that,
And the spirit in it will keep track.

By GtW o1-21-o4